"Dear diary,
Today I existed.”
I’m tired of being scared, nervous, distant. It gets old pretty fast. And I’ve been really impatient lately.
Funny I write all the stuff I do out here for anyone to see. I don’t know who reads it.
What if we could all crack open eachothers’ diaries to read.. Yea, maybe there are secrets worth keeping- but I can’t say I have any. They all tend to bubble up to the surface anyway, like some volcanic landscape.
Anyway, what I wanted to write here is a consolation to myself, and to the artist:
If it has come from your heart, it’s a certain kind of purity; never allow yourself to be embarrassed of it. We’re socialized to belittle or hide it all. Stop it.
Artist! Person! Whatever you decide to act upon, create, express- if it comes from love (the unselfish, positive, expansive kind),

it can’t be bad, it can’t be wrong.

I break down sometimes thinking, “all the love in the world can never be enough, can never alter this reality, can never change this; or what has happened, or is to happen..”
Some things won’t ever be alright. But here it is..
My own and very best truths echo from the most mysterious core of a thing that keeps me alive.. The ways I’m drawn to beauty as if it were a vortex.. Moved by a progression of chords.. Happy, however momentarily, by simply being here.

A few of my greatest purposes:
-remind people to stop and smell the roses
-long term exposure to starlight
-expressing myself alongside this whole trajectory
-love,
-M

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Sunday, 21st September
crossgram:

#mtb#mountainbiking#southdowns#summer#cissburyring#niner#cyclocross#scenic#kona#jakethesnake#worthing#morningride by smudgersmith67 http://ift.tt/1uUbzHV

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#mtb#mountainbiking#southdowns#summer#cissburyring#niner#cyclocross#scenic#kona#jakethesnake#worthing#morningride by smudgersmith67 http://ift.tt/1uUbzHV

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Sunday, 21st September

(via mineralia)

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Saturday, 20th September
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Forest, Creeks and Mud. Country > City. Off road > road. #velo #cycling #cx #cyclocross #wiltshire #england #uk #forest #igcycling #igerscycling by nathwilson22 http://ift.tt/1AXhCfA

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Forest, Creeks and Mud. Country > City. Off road > road. #velo #cycling #cx #cyclocross #wiltshire #england #uk #forest #igcycling #igerscycling by nathwilson22 http://ift.tt/1AXhCfA

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Saturday, 20th September
I was going through the photos on my phone and saw this.. and remembered how beautiful this moment was. It had stopped raining and a giant cloud rose between the trees and mountains.
I’m there again. It’s no wonder why I keep having dreams about this place. It has gained more power over me. There’s something almost spiritual about it now. It has an unique energy.. And maybe part of it is because I love the notion of pausing our lives in the ‘real’ world to -however momentarily- reconstruct our own reality. And when this happens, it’s like you can start to know what truth really feels like.
I find new consolation there in the simplest things. A strange purging happens, both joyful and painful.. but it makes way for clarity and peace.. Something that looks like this: breaks in time, where you could swear you’re in a different world by the way things feel so clear and illuminated. Like after rain.  I remember announcing that this picture didn’t do that moment justice at all.  But I felt it. The feelings remain. And some are not likely to ever leave me.

I was going through the photos on my phone and saw this.. and remembered how beautiful this moment was. It had stopped raining and a giant cloud rose between the trees and mountains.

I’m there again.
It’s no wonder why I keep having dreams about this place. It has gained more power over me. There’s something almost spiritual about it now. It has an unique energy.. And maybe part of it is because I love the notion of pausing our lives in the ‘real’ world to -however momentarily- reconstruct our own reality. And when this happens, it’s like you can start to know what truth really feels like.

I find new consolation there in the simplest things. A strange purging happens, both joyful and painful.. but it makes way for clarity and peace.. Something that looks like this: breaks in time, where you could swear you’re in a different world by the way things feel so clear and illuminated. Like after rain.
I remember announcing that this picture didn’t do that moment justice at all.
But I felt it. The feelings remain. And some are not likely to ever leave me.

Beauties

laura-johnston:

quartz with pyrite, boulder opal, boulder opal, cavansite <3

(via mineralia)

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Saturday, 20th September

"You’ve got your passion, you’ve got your pride
But don’t you know that only fools are satisfied?
Dream on, but don’t imagine they’ll all come true
When will you realize, Vienna waits for you?”

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Friday, 19th September
my buttercat

my buttercat

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Friday, 19th September
John Steinbeck on Falling in Love: A 1958 Letter
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Friday, 19th September
Hunger Artists or Internships and the Arts | Art & Education
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Thursday, 18th September

I think it may be a gift though, in some light, not being able to remember faces in detail. Some just turn to static for me, and I’m glad, because otherwise they would be a long haunting. I remember them now in the same way I can recall dreams; so little detail, and just the general sense of their presence.
Last year I saw a face on the outside of a freeway overpass disappear. That moment stood in my memory for a long while against all the typical erosion patterns. If there was such a thing as an omen made just for me, he was it. He was a lot, and nothing, and definitely a ghost. This morning I can’t remember his image.
Last week, last year, years before; I’m just passing through.
The heat wave has ended for now. I’ll have to adjust my nocturnality. It’s too alone.
I’m lying here sleepless and dreaming.

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Thursday, 18th September

straightallies:

I want lgbt book stores, lgbt coffee houses, and lgbt theaters to replace lgbt bars as centers of community, places to meet people, and lgbt rights of passage.

(via mountfeelings)

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Thursday, 18th September
mountair:

The illustrious words and melodies of C. Kiten will find their way into your heart at the very end of the night this Monday at Pehrspace. A very special way to close out our fifth anniversary celebration.

Photo credit: Vania Fune

mountair:

The illustrious words and melodies of C. Kiten will find their way into your heart at the very end of the night this Monday at Pehrspace. A very special way to close out our fifth anniversary celebration.

Photo credit: Vania Fune

(via pehrspace)

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Wednesday, 17th September
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Morgonstund! #cyclocross by dirre2012 http://ift.tt/1mdyZrk

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Morgonstund! #cyclocross by dirre2012 http://ift.tt/1mdyZrk

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Wednesday, 17th September
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Strade? Dove andiamo noi non servono strade… #fixedforum #ciclocross #cyclocross #backtothefuture #sscx by fefforaf http://ift.tt/1DjkOpI

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Strade? Dove andiamo noi non servono strade… #fixedforum #ciclocross #cyclocross #backtothefuture #sscx by fefforaf http://ift.tt/1DjkOpI

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Wednesday, 17th September