So: I don’t know what’s next. I really don’t.
so here we go, maybe I can quantify it;
from my experience with emotional trauma there are approximately 1800 recovery intervals, all representing days or days in between days from a period of 6-10 months. this recovery entails falling short of natural capabilities, even on any scale. on the large scale days, one has no heart to set sail for novelty or truth or happiness; one is so disheartened as to ignore forward movement and natural progressions. on small scale days, one could have received more from the world if the twinge of scarred pain hadn’t kept them from reaching yet an inch further.
simply though, a lack of spirit is a setback to the spirit.
(so how can one catalyze the fragmented spirit collection process?)
For you I undress down to the sheaths of my nerves.
I remove my jewelry and set it on the nightstand,
I unhook my ribs, spread my lungs flat on a chair.
I dissolve like a remedy in water, in wine.
I spill without staining, and leave without stirring the air.
I do it for love. For love, I disappear.
- Kim Addonizio